When baby birds leave the nest…

There is nothing in life that will ever prepare you for your children leaving home and starting their own lives and marriages and careers. I think I now understand “empty nest syndrome” and also why so many women have children at like 49 when all of their other children are grown. 

My kids are now too busy for me. They don’t need me like they used to. They can’t find 5 minutes in a week to call or even text to say “hello” to their mother. It’s the most awful feeling. 

To make matters worse, I don’t have a husband, or even a boyfriend to keep me company. It’s just me. Going through mental hell, with the perceived loss of my children adding to my feelings of worthlessness and my overall depression. 

It’s hard for me to not get upset, sad and even angry. I don’t understand their “busy”. I worked 12-14 hour shifts 6 days a week and worked from home on my day off, but I still always made time for my family. To call my mom, to text and say “hi” to the kids. 

I used to always joke that they would someday be on Dr Phil as adults complaining about how I fucked up their lives and it feels like that is where we are in our relationship right now.

I wish you could somehow learn to prepare for REAL LIFE challenges growing up. And not just learning how to write complete sentences and solve algebraic equations. No one teaches you how to be financially responsible, how to be a mother, how to be a wife, or how to let your little baby birds fly the nest to make lives of their own…

Author: Autumn Delaney

A screwed up girl in an even more screwed up world...

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