Catching up…

It’s been awhile. I think that most of my blogging happens in times of severe crisis and distress. Which has been a lot lately…. but I have to tell you. Something has changed. 

I’m not sure what it is or how it happened. Or if it’s even gonna last. But I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m more optimistic and am even thinking about going back to work. 

I have discovered a new hobby that I think I have a natural talent for. It’s floral arranging. Faux flowers. When I’m making arrangements, I feel like I’m at peace. 

Everything I’m making currently is for a holiday boutique that is coming up in early November where I live. I have also started a website/shopify store that is still under construction, but I will be doing custom floral arrangements and gift baskets. 

It might suck. And it might not do well. But regardless, it is making me feel good again. Giving me a purpose that is tangible. I don’t see myself in such an awful light anymore. 

I do still have trouble leaving the house, and showering. Those 2 things I just can’t seem to do on a regular basis. 

I think that the reason for this very well could be Lamictal or lamotrigine. It seems to have stabilized my moods even in the short 3 weeks since I started taking it. 

I also started vaping a mixture of 4% THC to 45% CBD. Now I’m pretty against smoking pot for myself because it gives me horrible anxiety and I hate that “Stoney” feeling. However, I must say that this is actually reducing my anxiety. It’s calming, but not Stoney and doesn’t knock me on my ass. 

I guess I just wanted to check in and update anyone who will listen on my well-being since I don’t have many friends to share with. 

Have a great weekend everyone!

Author: Autumn Delaney

A screwed up girl in an even more screwed up world...

4 thoughts on “Catching up…”

    1. My flower arrangements? Thank you. I’m hoping to sell a lot of them at our holiday boutique cause lawd knows I’ve spent ALOT of money on flowers. And I’m also gonna make business cards and start doing custom arrangements. It’s crazy because I never knew I had this talent. I’ve never known what I like to do and what makes me happy. My life is usually mirrored to that of whoever I am dating. But I’ve been single for so long, I’m getting to know myself. This is a HUGE accomplishment for me.

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